Is it fair that I don't want him to talk about something that means so much to me ? How much it tears me up. How much it just makes me want to cry forever. I wish I didn't feel the way I do. That I could get through one single conversation about it without shedding a tear or feeling like I am going to break down on the spot. I just hate the thoughts. And how much that means to me, I don't think it is fair that I don't like to talk about it. I don’t know. I just don’t like it.
And now, things are getting worse. I mean like, everything seems so different than before. We fight a lot. I don't wish to turn back time but I just wish he could treat me well. Like a princess, not like a stone. Leaving me all day long like nothing happened is nonsense as shit. Is it just me or you've really changed? I don't know why, but I always feel like everything is always my fault. I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I am.
I'm tired of crying. Assalamualaikum.